For Some

PUBLISHED: June 8, 2016 in Bright Blue Sky and Gray Silence

While for some kids coming out as being gay or lesbian to their parents is easy, for me it was much harder. I knew my parents would always accept me as their daughter, but it was the fear of hearing what they had to say. Before telling my parents, I had to actually find myself first. Finding myself took time; it was an actual thought process. I went through the process of thinking, Is this actually how I feel, or is it just a phase? I knew I felt this sort of attraction toward girls when I started developing a huge crush on my best friend.

As months went by, I soon developed the courage to tell my parents. Unfortunately, I didn't choose the best way of telling them. I remember it was a Wednesday in mid-April, and I was sitting on the couch debating whether or not to tell my parents. My hands began to shake, and tears streamed down my face as I started a “group chat” via text with my mom and dad. I don’t exactly remember what I said, but it was somewhere along the words of “I like girls.”

As my phone began to ring, it was my mom. She simply said, “Halei, what’s going on?”

All I replied was, “I’m sorry.”

She replied, “We’ll talk when I get home.”

My dad just said, “It's okay; I love you either way.”

When my mom came home, she looked at me for a while and said, “You know I love you, right?” then gave me a hug and kiss.

Written by Halei A.

Halei A.

AGE 16